Been a long time......

DRAINED.....thats been the feeling for awhile and i usually thought was tired frum stayin up late or sumthin but i went to my naturalist (kinda an energy doctor) ad got checked out and basically if i keep liing the way i have been i will die. But i got stuff to take care of myself now and track is over which gives me more time to eat and sleep and wat not. I was thinkin about it and this whole bad energy thing really affected me in a lot of ways, i get irritated faster which i hate cause that hurts the people around me, my school has ,suffered a lil cause it is so damn difficult to focus u have no idea really, and then i would go to practice and my legs would be so tired and my arms and when i would try and practice i would get so tired and in-turn unmotivated and i was always so confused cause i shouldnt have been but it was because of a really like energy deprivation thing so life has been good but hopefully fixing this will make it so much better!!! Wish me luck lol

Last night i had so much fun with the team and it was kinda kasi's b-day thing and it was awesome. HAPPY B-DAY KASI!!!!!

Monica Nevi #15 

holy crap everythin is so up and down in my life now crazy times crazy times. everytime somethin goes good and everythin is fine somethin else jus snaps bak at me and wont calm down. It will all work out cuz i wont give up until i have exactly wat i want and that is all 5 priorities all of them and everythin else that keeps attempting to be a 6th or sumthin wont get ne piece of me until the 5 are in perfect situation..... stress is a bad thing and im no good at handling it.

Any ways last night we (me john kas trev pat and lisa) all went to john's house and jus kicked it and watched movies it was pretty good times. then tooday i jus woke up at like 11 and harmeet came over and we attempted to do our project and we really didnt do nethin so that was kool i guess. Tonight i am havin like an easter dinner and my other best-friend philip is comin to dinner i miss him and i think i dont no wat i think but i cant give up nethin so ill jus have to work it out so its kinda a bare with me kinda thing i guess.w/e ok well skool tomoro and i dont wanna go and then track and i dont wanna go and then practice and i dont really wanna go but kinda cuz thats my constant love never wavers i love it.....i wish everythin was like that.

"I dropped a tear in the ocean the day that I find it we will stop being best friends" "There's a point in every true friendship when you stop being friends and become family" that happened awhile ago Bons #15 Dont take me to serious im easily changed FKJPB- I wont stop until i have it all!

Yesterday was my first track meet ever and it went pretty good i guess i should have done a lot better on my long jumps but other than that it was all good. Then we (me kas lisa john and...paco...??) went to trev and doug's all-star game thing that was pretty kool i guess. Then me and lisa went bak to katrina's for a track sleepover and kas came too it was good times yep but it doesnt really compare to the basketball girls i miss them. the i came home cuz the carwash was cancelled yessss... cuz it was rainin hella hard. but i didnt really wanna wash no cars neways so u no. yea i came home and cleaned and crap like that and now im goin to have some fun wit the triple date situation u no. lol thats all for now much love to everyone peace

Bons #15

wow its been hella long since i signed this sorry neways lately life has been pretty good flight started and i jus want to werk hella hard right now i like have this drive and i dont want it to go away u no i jus wanna get so much better. anyways everythin else is good to today is a half-day so father took me and john to my house and he supposed to come get us at 1:50 to bak to practice o yea hitler is the track coach if you didnt know yea she a ho HO. neways last weekend was tuff i had a tourney in spokane and it went pretty good but i missed everybody so much and it sucks wen stuff is happenin and u wanna b there but all u can do is hear it over the phone aaahhh i hated it but this weekend will b tight it better. lol ok well i dont have much else to talk about so ill c u guys around. Much love to everybody peace

Bons #15